“We can drop the fundamental hope that there is a better “me” who will one day emerge. We can’t just jump over ourselves as if we were not there.” – Pema Chodron

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My first post!  Only 18 days late!  This, like many other things, was supposed to start on January 1st, 2014.  Right around September, I start pushing all the things I’d like to do, have to do and down right must do until the New Year.  Then I push that until February because of, you know, the holidays just ended, kids got sick, it snowed, and snowed, and snowed.  Really I should just start calling February 1st, my New Year.  Boy, do I beat myself up over this!  I used to be “better”.

The funny thing is, I never used to be a procrastinator.  I was a  “get it done”, “there’s no time like the present” kind of gal.  There was an urgency to things.  Like time was running out and I had to get it all in.  I was one of “those” people, a “list” people.  I had a new list everyday, taken from the master To Do List and I felt a huge sense of satisfaction (read: high) from crossing off things from that list.  Seriously, I would sometimes put the most insignificant things on the list just to cross them off.

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